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[Oct. 4th, 2009|10:36 pm] |
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time shouldnt pass so fast. it should be made illegal. |
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[Sep. 29th, 2009|11:09 pm] |
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i cant stop gleaming. so much to do. a list goes on forever. |
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| Part 3: To be Close To Something You Love |
[Apr. 14th, 2009|01:23 am] |
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I remember the things i did without you when I was missing you, and they were the things you do and the words you say and the places you hang. They were the most concrete things I could hold on to that brought me closest to you. |
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| Part 2: Haunting moments |
[Apr. 13th, 2009|11:56 pm] |
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I woke up today feeling slightly lost and my heart felt heavy. The feeling was too acute to forget. I remember waking up and feeling the sense of loss but this time, I couldnt pinpoint exactly what I am grieving about. I guess that's the worrying part, you grieve over the unknown, either that you grieve over what you refuse to admit openly. Explains why I was sadly alarmed by the intruding emotions this morning, my own facade is letting me down. |
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| Part 1 |
[Apr. 11th, 2009|03:04 am] |
This space is getting a little too painful to visit. Silly lovesick entries and angsty remarks that seem random to the public still make a heck lot of sense to me. I have, I think, in my opinion, officially closed a chapter in my life. No, it is probably volumes 1,2,3 and 4 and 5 and 6 of wym's life. It feels like bungee jumping. To take the plunge takes alot of guts, you don't exactly know what will happen for sure once you take the leap. You can die and regret, or live and tell a great story of experience. But somehow I am paused in midair after the leap, I can see what lies beneath, and I can hear voices behind me, but there is nothing i can do but stay in limbo. But no one stays in limbo forever, I know I will live to tell a great story, and many more.
I like to think I am a very practical person. Too realistic to the point of being manipulative and selfish and mean. I like to think that love is another manipulative tool created not by God. It emits negative energy. People abuse and imitate love to achieve their desires. It is unhealthy and it should really carry a health hazard sign. I don't know and maybe I don't want to get to knowing the beauty of love. I find it all rather overwhelming. My weakening heart supported by a pair of blackening unfiltered lungs will not be able to handle it. It is the kryptonite. Oh, by the way, I have cut down on ciggs. I think this is awesome. Cigg = best friend, remember? It keeps away lonely nights and fights away tears in time. The day I close my chapter on ciggs, hopefully, would not be the day I die. But that day, would be a very sad day too. I will lower the flags for a week and reminisce the good ol' days. Ok overdramatic, but smokers out there, you get my drift. Ok kryptonite, yes, love is the kryptonite. It makes you weak and vulnerable and people ride on your weakness to get to their destinations. What beauty is that? Can anyone honestly tell me love is flawless?
Love is a flaw itself, yes?
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[Oct. 22nd, 2008|07:04 am] |
hahaaaaaHAHAHAA..HAHAHAHHAhaha..ahahahhahaa, this brings back memories, hahahhahaha...HAHAHAAAAAAAAAHAHHAHA... omg sigh, hahaha my airways just contracted again Hhahhaha.ahahhahahhaahaha shite omg |
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[Oct. 19th, 2008|11:45 pm] |
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some things in life are just hard to deny. you can pretend it's not there, but you cant make it go away. |
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| The New Mac Is The New Sex. |
[Oct. 18th, 2008|07:29 am] |
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Tablet 1
Tablet 2
Tablet 3
Tablet 4
Tablet 5
Guys, I totally dig the tablet idea. Best possibly mocked-up designs. But it does seem like you're carrying a tv around, doesnt it?
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| the small things crack u up big. |
[Oct. 14th, 2008|07:34 am] |
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1. CASE OF MISUNDERSTANDING AND NOT READING THE WHOLE CONVERSATION, INSTEAD U READ WHAT LOOKS BIGGER. HAHHA IN THIS CASE, IS COCK.
vonne says: (7:32:24 AM) yokesssss....
vonne says: (7:32:26 AM) why?
vonne says: (7:32:30 AM) don woryr im obsessed too...
wongyokemay says: (7:32:36 AM) hahah with a new guy?!?!?!
vonne says: (7:32:36 AM) hai... i just killed my night
vonne says: (7:32:39 AM) thinking about something
vonne says: (7:32:40 AM) COCK...
vonne says: (7:32:43 AM) not with a new guy
vonne says: (7:32:52 AM) though... the frisbee orang putehs here are HOT man
wongyokemay says: (7:33:04 AM) ok haha ok u are obsessed with cock 2. TO LEARN NEW THINGS EVERYDAY. wongyokemay says: (7:36:50 AM) eh what is frisbee orang putehs
vonne says: (7:37:03 AM) guys who play frisbee and are white
vonne says: (7:37:04 AM) orang
vonne says: (7:37:07 AM) is people
vonne says: (7:37:09 AM) puteh is white
vonne says: (7:37:16 AM) angmoh lah angmoh..
vonne says: (7:37:22 AM) singaporean language is damn classy btw |
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| Celebrate the love of the one you're with |
[Sep. 26th, 2008|03:26 am] |
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im amazed at how much love i can give. dude, it's been like 6 years, but still once in awhile, i feel that my love has doubled, or even tripled, over and over again. it multiplies incessantly without me knowing. oh but when you do, you know it's worth it. (:
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[Sep. 24th, 2008|02:34 am] |
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This indian lady came for a light lunch today and she ordered caesar salad, which was not included in our outlet menu. Naturally, it is understood that she knew what caesar salad is, right? If not she wouldn't have ordered it out of the menu, yes? Anyways she asked for a prawn caesar and when halfway through her salad, she wailed about the existence of bacon bits innit. She claimed she's very upset because her religion forbids her to consume pork and she wants to bring it up to the management.
ok just to be on the right track:
1. she orders a caesar and not know that a standard caesar has bacon?
2. how the fuck were we all supposed to know she's muslim? she's an indian lady and indian muslims arent that obvious okay. what more she was hanging with an angmoh man, supposed muslims dont usually date out of their religion? are we supposed to go asking for a muslim id when someone orders a meal with bacon? someone none muslim might take it the wrong way you know, "what the, i know what is in a ceasar salad, and how could u ask if im muslim and tells me i cant take pork?" that's what this female (non-local) colleague told me to say next time if such case arise again. I laughed. my bf eats pork and if we went for bah chor mee and the stall lady decides not to serve him cos he is muslim, my bf will take serious offence i think. WHO KNOWS RIGHT.
3. WHY THE FUCK IS SHE EATING DURING LUNCH TIME?!?!?! SHE'S SUPPOSED TO BE FASTING NOW RIGHT, AND SHE HAS THE BLOODY CHEEK TO SAY IT'S AGAINST HER RELIGION TO TAKE PORK?!??! PLEASE LADY, YOU AREN'T SUPPOSED TO BE EATING NOW IF YOU ARE THAT STAUNCH.
Thank you. |
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| Totally. |
[Sep. 9th, 2008|05:56 am] |
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GGS2 has wicked dialogue. |
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| I've got a disease deep inside me |
[Sep. 8th, 2008|05:36 am] |
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It seems like everyone was out under the sun yesterday, if you throw a stone into a crowd you will probably hit someone you know on his head. Finally, something's here to make my sleepless nights worthy. Obsession strikes again, somebody's pocket gonna get burnt real bad / : My interview is on Tuesday, technically, i have one more day before showdown, but im still living in sunday..sigh I can't wait. hope this week gets better. |
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| Too Strong for Too Long |
[Sep. 4th, 2008|02:49 am] |
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A small feat today, i rolled my j in less than half a minute. HA. I'm so thrifty now it's totally not funny. if i possess that virtue earlier my boyfriend would have wept. hahahhaa. one pack of leaves costs me 9.8, one bag of filters costs 2.5? and according to sean a bag can last 2 weeks plus. I would be happy if it lasts more than a week. tsktsk. and i dont really need filters. next habit that needs a change would be my sleeping hours.
Yesterday i went to the Singapore Flyer for lunch with Janane. It was lovely, there was so much to catch-up on (: I havent seen her since last year and i'm glad we just did. So many things happened in a year, i just hope everything turns out for the better soon. Life gets so dreary sometimes im amazed how im not 61 and only 21. /:
On the hand, Im scared of getting old, words cant even describe how bad my fear is. I'm afraid of dying, getting old and grey and my movements start slowing down. Fearing that day God decides to take my boyfriend/husband away from me, fearing that I would be lonely. I guess the fear revolves around getting old and having loved ones being taken away from me. I remembered how when my grandfather was taken away into the back of the van, my grandmother broke down, that was the final goodbye, it was wrenching. Initially, I was puzzled why she wasnt crying continuously from the time my grandfather left, then my mom told me sometimes it doesnt hit you til it's gone. When he doesnt come home anymore, no one to sit with you during dinners, weekends become lonely, no one to talk to in the middle of the night no one to keep you warm..(seriously blankets can go screw themselves). That moment remains vivid, she looked so devastated and it was just too painful to see. I'm scared of that when i grow old. I hate goodbyes, i hate the sound of it.
Scientists please do something about it. go fuck up nature's course.
thank you very much.
i think this entry is longdistance sickness talking, not me.
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[Sep. 2nd, 2008|10:57 pm] |
Aimee and I went for Body Attack last Saturday. It was fun and also embarrassing to realize how lousy my coordination skills are. There were alot more leg movements than I expected, I could feel my toes tingling with numbness after a very short time of prancing around. ): We just kept ourselves amused with this funny guy, he is probably your very very average typical Singaporean, and he made the class look like some platoon marching around the Tekong parade square when he kept yelling around. Hahaha. We had lunch at her mom's Jap restaurant nearby and it was awesome! I love Jap. I had Jap for dinner too when I met up with the rest at Liang Court Supermarket.
After that was poker at Leon, ok not so much poker for me ): my mom picked me up after her dinner. Lim and Rod brought over a dozen bottles of champagnes and wines, and so we all got merry. :D
Oh btw, my boyfriend isnt coming back in Sept. ): Sigh, nothing to say man. |
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| Goodbye Melbs, Hello Singapore |
[Aug. 9th, 2008|07:55 pm] |
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im back hoes.
three weeks of no blogging, bed hogging, street walking and house cleaning has rendered me disorientated. i honestly don't want to be back. three weeks is not enough man. too bad im broke and didnt visit Crown (could've made a killing). Pictures might/might not be up, ive no patience to upload it, facebook, most probably yes. not forgetting i would have to title all the pics. zzz.
amidst other very important issues, im planning my next trip (dates and budget) to melbourne again. Initial plan was to travel in Dec for our 6th year anniversary, but now i'm thinking MAYBE if baby comes back in Sept and definitely back in Jan, I must as well plan for March/April? More time for me to save cash..anways, just a thought.
Right now im terribly nafis-sick, rant/sobbed/slept/emoed my way home on the plane, on my first night back. many more nights to come. my friends are sick of me already and i would love to see my bf again. what was it about love being only a feeling? love STARTS with a feeling and... and you know larr huh. need more explanation.
keep warm my love, keep those toes warm, remember to blow out the candles before u sleep dont let the bedbugs bite.
love,
wym |
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